So I had two back-to-back personal training sessions. Today I can barely type. Everything hurts.
During my session yesterday I came to the realization that I was having a bit of trouble making it through the workouts without getting down on myself. I thought, "Man, I'm just so tired of sucking at all this." I talked to my trainer about it and told her how frustrating it was to feel so weak day after day. I acknowledge that I'm only 9 sessions in... but that's 9 hours of feeling like a wimp. Steph confidently told me I had been improving and she could see it. She also pointed out that I'm not paying her to make easy work outs for me. True, true. When we finished up the workout, she told me she would go back and look up what I did during my first workout with her and we would do it again. She guaranteed me it would be easy.
So when I met with her today (after running a mile on the treadmill - which I hadn't been able to do without A LOT of complaining and contemplating quitting just a few weeks ago) Steph told me we were going to do bits and pieces of my first two work outs... with a little tweaking to make sure I would still get a good workout today.
First up were planks with jumping jacks (plank position on hands and toes, then jump legs apart and together). First session I had to do 10... and I barely made it through. Today, I did 30. I was panting a bit, but I did them without stopping. Yes! The second set of these today I had to add "up downs" where I go from being on two hands, down to my elbows, and back up again, in between each jack.
Second, sitting on the mat I leaned back about halfway (probably less than that at the end), knees bent, feet off the ground. She tossed a medicine ball at me, I caught it, tapped it on the ground to the right then the left, and then tossed it back to her. Three weeks ago I couldn't hold my feet up and we did 10 with a lighter ball; today I managed to keep my feet up and we used a heavier ball. I admit I had to take a break or two though.
The session went on and on, the exercises became more and more difficult and less and less like my first session, but I got the point, I've made some strides; gained some strength and endurance. Most importantly, I have had a mental shift from "there's NO WAY I can finish this and I don't want to try," to "I'll give it a go, not sure I'll make it through all the reps without stopping, but I can push through it."
It's nice to know these sessions are working. I'm getting stronger and learning an important lesson about what I am capable of doing. Meanwhile, I can hardly move!
***I just took a photo of my sneakers since they are my training partners and are "with me every step of the way," but my camera battery died while trying to upload it.***